"stars are just wishes given to the sky"

when i was a kid

i used to send my balloons to sky for the little kids to have that were dead. i liked to play dress up. i was afraid of the dark and hid under my blankets. i use to wave to the garbage man. i played tea party with my plastic cups that had matching plates and silverware. when i was a kid i played with my plastic food and gave it to people. when i was a kid my cousin was my best friend. when i was a kid i used to say "Green go" while my mom was driving. i dressed up as Jasmine from aladdin because we had the same names. when i was kid i tried to ride my dog like a horse. when i was a kid i liked to roll down hills. when i was a kid i liked to play in my tent. when i was a kid i use to talk to tv with blues clues. when i was a kid i couldnt get to sleep unless i saw the moon. when i was kid i wore my life size barbies clothes. when i was kid i liked to color and go swimming in nanny and papas pool. when i was kid i survived off of fruit snacks and ramen. when i was a kid i wore garanimals that never matched. when i was a kid i watched MTV, yeah MTV. When i was a kid i wore pink combat boots all the time. when i was a kid i grew up with a dad for a musician so i loved hearing the trumpet and hearing the music. when i was kid, the asians would mess with me. when i was a kid i wore my pajamas all the time. when i was a kid, my parents got divorced, and i remember being in the car and hearing my mom say "Corey get out the car", repeatedly. when i was kid i remember moving and not knowing how to make any friends. when i was a kid i used to live in texas and my shirt ripped and the boy i liked laughed at me and i felt like britney spears in that one school girl music video. when i was a kid i was a lefty, my teacher thought i was a witch so taught me otherwise. when i was a kid, i liked juice and the sun.

Now i'm 15teen

I can barely stand who i am. Now that im 15 i don't like certain people. Now that im 15 i go to highschool, and call people names. I cuss alot, but i respect my mother enough to not do it infront of her. Now that im 15 i have to remember to not give a fuck (there i go cussing again) about what people say or think about me. Now that im 15 i have pink hair. Now that im 15 i tried drugs, i dont like them. Now that im 15, i like boys. Stuff that would appeal to little kids are cool to me. Now that im 15 i'm not sure of what i like or what im suppose to like. Now that i'm 15 i have ALOT of friends, and i dont know which are real. Now that im 15 i have to make my own choices. Now that im 15 i can DRIVE. Now that im 15 i have a cell phone, and have to text people so that we can stay friends. Now that im 15 i have to make sure i look good and use make up. Now that im 15 if i want something im going to have to work for it. Now that im 15 i have to act like it. Now that im 15 boys like me back and i dont always want them there. Now that im 15 i dont know what to do, i dont know anything my mind is on a reset. What happened to 5 year old me, now doesn't happen to 15 me.

When I Was

When i was little and silly, i didnt cry over boys, i cried over booboos and not finding blues clues. When i was little and silly, i didnt sit down on my floor in the bathroom for no and reason and start balling my eyes out. When i was little and silly, i didnt know what a rave was or wanted candiies from them. When i was little and silly, they told me not to do drugs, now they are all around me. When i was little and silly i wanted to grow up and be a big kid because they were cool. Now that im big and "cool" i wanna be a little and silly, dreaming, believing, playing, cute, girl.