52Hz and still no lover.

The Loneliest Whale in the World.

In 2004, The New York Times wrote an article about the loneliest whale in the world. Scientists have been tracking her since 1992 and they discovered the problem:

She isn’t like any other baleen whale. Unlike all other whales, she doesn’t have friends. She doesn’t have a family. She doesn’t belong to any tribe, pack or gang. She doesn’t have a lover. She never had one. Her songs come in groups of two to six calls, lasting for five to six seconds each. But her voice is unlike any other baleen whale. It is unique—while the rest of her kind communicate between 12 and 25hz, she sings at 52hz. You see, that’s precisely the problem. No other whales can hear her. Every one of her desperate calls to communicate remains unanswered. Each cry ignored. And, with every lonely song, she becomes sadder and more frustrated, her notes going deeper in despair as the years go by.

Just imagine that massive mammal, floating alone and singing—too big to connect with any of the beings it passes, feeling paradoxically small in the vast stretches of empty, open ocean.

Its sad, and really heartbreaking. That i can completely feel for this whale.

This whale has tried every attempt to find love, and still nothing.

I know that i just wrote a blog about playing the victim card, and here i am not trying to play the card. I am not going to tell you that i have no family, because i do, and they love me, i'm not going to say that i have no friends, because i do and they are there for me. I'm not going to say that i have no one, because i have people. But all these people, no matter how much they are there for me, they have love.

Something i do not.

Yeah every one of my friends has that beautiful teenage love where every thing sparkles and shines and there is no more wrong in the world. You have a person to hold and hug and kiss and just be loved on.

I wish i could have that. I wish i could have my boy want me as much as i want him.

This my life, is a tragic love story.

I'm at 60hz while he is only at 23. I while never be detected by him.